Merci

So two roads diverged in the woods and I took the one less travelled by and it did make a difference. Differential mathematics will always teach you how things divide and for some reason keep growing bigger. Bigger in number and smaller in size. They keep multiplying in an additive way which ultimately amounts to nought. Sometimes life is like a movie if you percieve it that way. Yeah with all that background narration and feelings. Only thing is they happen in your head. Movie it is. What if I had taken the other road? Everything would've been so different today. As a thinker you are forced to think because the only thing that listen to you is yourself. So keep churning those thoughts and thinking everything you want to. Roll them in. You know life can surprise you from anywhere. Just try and not be choosy and try and value what you have. Really. Sometimes the diamond is right beside you while you are chasing the coal. And  you miss out. and guess what you get teh coal. And...

Several times you stop and ask yourself,"What tangible do I have to hold on to? After all this while and all the troubles you hurdled yourself out of. Trying to find a newer way and finally getting on the road. Only to relapse into the storm you've already seen. The battles you've already fought. Enemies becoming friends and friends your enemies. Watching yourself go down on the same road you've faced before. Not learning from past lessons. And watch your life stop as others whiz by. Or others don't really matter. Just not getting anywhere. And then dreading the loss. The loss of what you love or whom you love. One by one watch as they go. All these fears and more. Lookin for shelter but finding none. Maybe lookin for shelter in the wrong place. Seeking solace but being rebuked. Asking for help receiving derision. The scriptures say that hell awaits those who break someone's heart. Is it true? Or is it simply hell for those who are hurt ?hearts do break. Somet...

I am currently on a short vacation, thanks to an extended weekend. Yet, I want more holidays. Sitting here, writing this post I'm having a feeling that I should simply quit my job and go backpacking or live in the hills. Several times I have been told that I would get bored in the hills, but I keep hoping that one day it would be true. To have a house over a hill. Laziness is a wondrous frenemy that has taken my side. I am spending the most lazy days of my life.I occassionally dream of freedom. Freedom is really a struggle. Always been. I dream of waking up when I feel like or flying in the night. (Okay, I just made pav bhaji and returned.So where were we? Let's continue..) So, yes. I want to be able to do whatever I want whenever I feel like. With no permissions, no hassles.It seems like a dream. Will it ever come true? I don't know. Like Sheldon says ," Why hast thou forsaken me, O diety whose existence I doubt?"  Speaking of which The Big Bang Theory Sea...